Brotherly love, intimacy, touch, what do those things mean to us? In recent times I’ve desired to share an intimate bond with my brothers. As we only tend to speak about matters external to each other; media, video games, food and hardly about our hardships or emotions. Holding space with one another to tell stories and have emotionally driven conversations is something completely foreign to us. The reality of not being able to remember a time where I’ve hugged either of my brothers is what makes me want to explore our relationship further.

In every photograph through different acts of intimacy and closeness, we challenge this idea that we have lacked for quite a while. Intimacy among brothers within several intersectionalities has been lost due to preconceived notions and biases we hold onto, sometimes because those with more authority say so or the community we surround ourselves with believe in such things. However positioning ourselves in ways that leave us vulnerable and open is the first step into healing what we already have, eachother.

White is a recurring theme in this series and is symbolic of surrenderance, vulnerability, and naturalness. Beginning with wearing white, we offer ourselves to enter this space of complete openness to discover and answer questions about each other we’d never known existed. The Baby’s Breath flower is another intentional choice I made when conceptualizing this project. This flower is most commonly known to be a symbol of everlasting love but also represents innocence, this duality with the act of holding and posing with this flower contributes to the overarching message of this project.

In My Dreams, I Held You Close, exists for others to explore their relationships with their brothers. Demanding they slow down to take a look within and reflect on why they may or may not believe in certain notions. Why shouldn’t brothers be able to laugh, hug, or even cry? This is only the beginning to discovering ourselves, the ones we dream we could be. Time does not forgive, love one another while we are all still here. 

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